Time Flies When Your Having Fun

I honestly cannot believe that my freshman year of college is coming to an end. It feels like yesterday I was going to the orientation and nervous about what I was going to wear to the first day of school. Sadly as time went on outfits were not the biggest problems in my life. This second semester was definitely more challenging than the first, but more memorable as well.
Today as each class came to an end, with the thought of finals on my mind, I walked out of each class thinking, time flies. I remember thinking at the beginning of the year, what will I do this summer, and it is almost here. I must sound crazy but now that the summer is here, I do not know what to do with it. I feel like its coming to fast, and I did not have enough time to plan anything, but then again… the summer is all about impulsiveness and not knowing what is going to happen next. I guess what I am saying is, soon I will be done with school completely and I will be thrown into the real world, and I do not like that one bit. It is like the Toys R Us slogan “ I don’t wanna grow up I’m a Toys R Us kid”.
There are so many pieces of my puzzle that are still missing. As school comes to a close, another piece is set in stone, you cannot go back anymore, just look forward. As I look forward, I see a beach with me tanning on it, and after a trip to Star Bucks to get a frap with some friends! I hope this summer holds love, good friends, good times, and of course an amazing tan!

Another HORRENDOUS Day at Work

So yesterday was the Sunday before mother’s day. As I strolled in to work with my Star bucks coffee, I glanced into the store and saw chaos, the store was only open for ten minutes prior, and already there were at least fifteen people in the store, which means the store was packed, because the store is no where near big. On the inside I was crying and savoring every last sip of my white mocha frap. It was at this time I put on a smile and said “ Hi how are you, do you need any help today”. I was once again bombarded with silly questions, like do you have mother’s day gifts? If you knew what my store looked like you would know that the whole front wall is filled with mother’s day frames and pillows, quilts, and anything else you could think of. I have come to realize that people in a frantic just may not be able to see what is right in front of them. This should not come as a shock… but the debit credit scenario occurred many times yet again. I have no patience left, all I have is my empty star bucks cup and a sad tired face. Just another venting process because I just needed to let it all out.

What is it like to be a HAWK?

Some people are very observant. I happen to have a best friend who is more than observant; it is her natural instinct to see everything. She does not miss a thing, it is rubbing off on me, I guess you could call me a hawk in training. She hears everything, sees everything, knows dates and times, truly an amazing talent. She is my best friend and this quality happens to bring us closer and closer everyday. I now find myself being places and calling her crouched down behind a garbage pail telling her what I am seeing or what I am hearing. This usually occurs in the mall, which is drama central. Everyone has something to say like ever famous statement “it isn’t an affair when everyone knows about it” stated from a loser at a cart. People happen to annoy the both of us, and little do they know but we scream and laugh in their faces because we hate them not because we think they are funny. The laughs that can be heard in the mall are haunting. The two of us together is a ridiculous combination. It is like God spaced us out coming into the world, about four years so that the world would be ready for what is NOW. I speak to her about twelve times a day and I can never end a conversation without I LOVE YOU. All and all, she is a hawk. I will someday be a hawk. Anything that goes on, we know about it, so stop thinking we do not. And one last thing, “we do not offer food to you because we do not care about your needs, nor do we want to share with you”. Two hawks, one card store, a buffet of food, no one else is needed! Another piece of the puzzle that will never change.

Confessions of a Cardstore Clerk

No one really uses the term “clerk” anymore but it just seemed to fit into this rant of working. I am sick of writing about celebrities lives, my life is complicated and action filled enough that I should have at least seven hundred blogs. I have read blogs in the past about people ranting about things that bother them… my job happens to bother me. I work in a card store, for those of you who know me you know what store this is. I am sick and tired of the stupidity that strikes the world today. When approaching the counter if they are not paying cash, we say “press debit or credit and then swipe”… still after saying that people swipe their card and wonder why it did not go through, I try to tell them to PRESS debit or credit first and then swipe. They then fight with me and say but then it will go through twice and I have to explain to them that because they did not press debit or credit nothing went through. I have been working there for two years and I could estimate that this problem occurs ten to twenty times a day. Another thing.. it may seem obvious to you but if you walk into a CARD store and ask if they sell CARDS you need to get your head examined. I feel that since the store I work in only has four aisles and they are all filled with cards this is a stupid question. There is the ever so favorite “Do you sell socks here?”, it takes all the patience in the world not to SCREAM !! I feel like saying NO YOU IDIOT THIS IS A CARD STORE, TRY MACYS! It has been a long day at work, maybe because mother’s day is approaching. I am sure more confessions will be posted within the upcoming weekend… until then.. there is just another piece of the puzzle!

He doesn't even know...

He doesn’t even know that when he smiles my heart races. I sit there and think, does he even know I exist. When I watch movies with my friends and a cute romantic scene comes on I think to myself I wish he did these things.. but he doesn’t even know. I consider my self to be a somewhat expert in the so called “love” area. I have been through a lot and I keep coming back for more. Music triggers it, movies, a glance, a wave. I tend to over analyze little things as flirting, which is why it gets me to points like this. I know I am not the only one who feels this way, but sometimes all I can see is him. I think to myself, I barely know him, this is why I want to know more. I even can clock certain things, first, walk into class put things down, start computer, look up and hopefully he is looking at me, usually a smile occurs sometimes a head nod. I know boys, and they barely make an effort. For two semesters I have seen this guy and it drives me crazy… this happens to be a piece of the puzzle that may never fit, but who really ever knows.

Oops... I forgot the words!

Last night on American Idol, finalist Brooke White begun her song, and forgot the words after the first ten seconds. As I watched the show my heart ached for her. That must feel like absolute pain. To know that your one shot each week on national television is over. She re-started the song but it was still on everyone's mind. I was most shocked by Paula's statement telling Brooke to never stop a song, but if you think about it, how could you go on. I know if i did not know the words to a song I would be completely done, I probably would not have been able to continue.

Procrastinating.... in the flesh

Ellen DeGeneres's HBO special, about procrastinating, it is like she was in my head. It is hilarious. This is just the first ten minutes.




This is the second part... there are like 6 parts, but I am just posting the first two!